I was 28 when a women next to me at a bar turned abruptly to me and said “You’ll birth a baby girl”.
“Who me?” Little did she know that wasn’t medically possible for me.
“I’m a bit drunk and I’m a medium. There is this nagging something that wants you to know you’ll birth a baby girl”.
I thanked her, I smiled and walked away with my delicious drink. I remember thinking she should slow down she’s had way to much of the good stuff.
I was 35 when the ultrasound tech announced I was having a girl.
How in Gods name did you get that info from all that fuzzy stuff on that tiny screen and holy hell that lady was right!
Instantly the conversation with the drunk lady in that bar played in my head like a movie.
How did she know!!!!!!
I was rocked to my core. Plenty of drunk strangers have said weird things to me… this one was different. This lady was right.
Last year I came across a lovely women while looking for insight and answers into a long drawn out battle with myself, stay in my marriage or leave.
I had exhausted self help books, therapist, support groups, a local pastor, and all sorts of other traditional “please help me get right with my life” stuff that I could come up with.
Kim was a breath of fresh air. She is a spiritual advisor, she has the ability to channel different energies that show her information. Skeptical right, I know I was, but I was open to anything at this point. The universe literally put her in front of me at a friends house. I won’t go into a ton of detail, but know this, she knew nothing about me. I had never met her. She spent less than 5 min. talking with me before she started her reading with me.
The first thing she said is your first child is always with you. What!!!!! How could she have known I had a miscarriage. Parlor trick?
The second thing she referenced was the “how I found out I was having a girl” situation.
Wait what? I sat still and silent as she tried to explain what the energy/spirt was showing her. “A blonde in a bar who knew before you did? Does that sound right?” She said. My mouth dropped…. there is no way she could come up with that!!!!
I have never included the color of the women’s hair when I retell that story.
Kim, I have got some questions for you!!!
I met with Kim 3 times over the last year. She is lovely. Soft spoken and unobtrusive.
At the end of our last session together she said “they want you to know, no matter what, you will always have love. You will always love and be loved. You won’t be alone”.
It wasn’t till she said it that I was aware of how scared I really was of losing one of the greatest loves I’ve known. Even though it had gone south. I was scared I’d never love again. It was in her words I found the peace and strength to remember “better to have loved and felt loss than never to have loved at all.” With Kim’s final words that day she completed a puzzle that had tore me up for years, stay or leave. Leave because I love myself, leave because I love Hadley, leave because I love him, leave because we all deserve a life less tortured. Leave because we all deserve to be loved in a way that brings us joy.
I’m thankful to have known love and be afraid to lose that love.
Imagine never knowing love… I just can’t.
I believe we’d be lost without love.
I’m driven by my love and am hopefull I’ll find it again.